In my first writing for OOPS 50, I mentioned several words that have impacted my relationships with my parents and with all people I encounter. These chosen words shape my living and my writing and should be shared again. My chosen words:
ALLOW-TRUST-REMEMBER-STAND-give CHOICE- BE RESPONSIBLE-RESPECT-CREATE AUTHENTICITY- LET GO- and have GRATITUDE
You may, from time to time, experience similarities or repetitions in my word usage or phrases. They all relate. They are all my foundation. Today, I am adding GRATITUDE to my list, but I want to talk about TRUST.
Let’s see what Webster’s and the thesaurus have to say about TRUST.
WEBSTER’s (short version): RELIANCE, INTEGRITY, STRENGTH, CONFIDENCE, RELIES UPON, ENTRUSTED, SAFEKEEPING, RESPONSIBILITY.
The thesaurus says: TRUSTWORTHY, ASSURANCE, CERTAINTY, CONVICTION, CREDENCE, DEPENDENCE, ENTRUSTMENT, SURENESS.
Trusting could be viewed as a ‘thin’ line between knowing and not knowing, between asking “is it real or Memorex?” One of my many mentors states that, if you question, an opportunity presents itself to look within yourself—and the answer will be there.
As we mature, we become wise women, or at least wiser women, acquiring from experiences the processes and effects of trusting or not—who, what, when—those nagging questions and details.
I am speaking here about trusting SELF, the big trust! The scary trusting! The questionable trust. The fear that comes just from the thought of trusting self is a BIGGY! To do so, for me, requires constant, conscious awareness of self, allowing—here again, utilizing another one of my words—that the work must be done: going to the edge, jumping off, and trusting that there is a net below!
Trusting in something we cannot see, touch, or feel is scary. Or does feeling even have value? Feel what you are feeling!
For my parents to have unconditional trust in me to care for them required some releasing, some trusting that they had done a great job in raising me, that they will be cared for—some letting go, to a degree, of being in charge, moving from being the doer to being done for. Bottom line: a lot was required of them!
Being the proud and grateful parent of my parents was and is a heart-intense journey. And I do mean intense. Continue reading Fatimah: Being a Proud & Grateful Parent of a Parent: Part III: TRUST