As a young woman I mostly remember feeling too fat, too rubinesque, too tall, too feminine… I was an independent and carefree spirit who didn’t need anyone to be happy on this planet and looking so striking made me nervous.
Looking back at the pictures of my youth, I see a stunning and beautiful smiling face looking at the camera, always laughing and having a good time.
Now that I’m older I feel more vain and aware of my looks, as if what is left of my “beauty” is fading fast.
I cried and cried because here I am, feeling vain about my youthful beauty that I never appreciated, while the women and men who have lost their hair and their carefree existence thanks to cancer, have nothing to look forward too.
And then I cried some more because I’ve recently lost my dear Aunt Ellie to cancer, and Frannie, and Melinda’s mom…and I just have to accept that I need to fall apart once in a while. I like to cry, and have been finding it hard to let go lately.
So I’m drying my eyes and I’m feeling more fragile and more human and more thankful for this gift called life.
Because that is exactly what it is – a present every single day.
Thank You to those at the Mimi Foundation for doing this project.
I purchase most of my food at our local Food Coop. There is something about being in a real Health Food Store that just feels good. You just feel the integrity and not just the profit margins. They have the best selection of bulk items like coffee, herbs, and grains, and, almost everything in the store is organic.
So while I try to avoid Whole Foods as much as possible because it’s so corporate and I don’t trust it (it’s definitely not a “Health Food Store”), I do buy their “365 Almond Milk” right now because it’s the only organic almond milk I can find.
Oh, I found this great makeup line at Sally’s Beauty Supply called Palladio. It’s not organic but it is very clean with no animal testing. It was so cheap (like $6 cheap) that I thought I’d give the lip-liner and lipstick a try, and I love it. I like the way it looks, smells and feels, and the packaging doesn’t look or feel cheap; it looks like expensive makeup.
What else? I’ve always juiced, and use a Champion that I got from a neighbor that is in excellent condition. I juice carrots, beets, celery, ginger, apples, and greens about every other day. I have always wanted a Vitamix, but they are about $500 and used ones are just a little cheaper.
Many of my friends are using a Ninja, which is just as powerful as a Vitamix. So I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond and was looking at “The Magic Bullet” and the other powerful little blenders. I asked the saleswoman for suggestions and lucky for me, she happened to be a juicer and she recommended the Ninja Pulse (it’s the white one for $79.99). It has many functions but the feature that I love is that I can make a single serving, which is the size of a large glass. It is so easy to use and clean: you just throw everything in it, including flax seeds (it completely grinds them), screw the cap on (which has the blades attached to it), put it on the little blender for a few seconds and take it off. That’s it – you just have the glass and cap to rinse off – it’s so easy! You can even put carrots in if you add a little liquid.
It doesn’t extract juice like the Champion, but instead it blends it so you still have all the fiber, which I like. I always have some frozen bananas or strawberries in the freezer so when I want ice cream or sorbet I just throw some frozen fruit and a little Almond Milk and I have ice cream. The other thing I like about the Ninja Pulse is it takes up very little counter space because it’s so small. I paid $64.00 plus tax because at Bed Bath and Beyond you get 20% off with their coupons – it’s a great investment!
Until next time…
Vivian Gold LMT
Global Vision Healing Arts
Massage and Wellness Therapy
M. Susan Street is the President of Vintage Jewelry Supplies Company, Inc. and the founder and editor of Fiftynotfrumpy.com, a great blog we just discovered–and we love! Here is her story:
After working in the fashion industry for most of my adult life as a model, visual merchandiser, corporate level manager and boutique jewelry designer, I realized– in my mid-fifties– that I could no longer speak the language of fashion. Since high school, I had floated effortlessly from one trend to the next: I wore the fashions of the moment, and my hair and makeup reflected the current trends as well. But at some point in my forties, my marriage and my personal life started to crumble beneath my high heels. The resulting depression lasted for a very long time, and I retreated into my work.
At forty-five years old, I had to start over, with nothing more than my clothes and the contents of my design studio. I began building an internet-based jewelry supply business, which meant that I rarely came in contact with others. I worked alone for eighteen hours a day, seven days a week, for several years.
The world continued on without me, but when I was ready to be a part of it all again, I looked in the mirror to see a woman I no longer recognized. I had gained a lot of weight, and my health was failing because I really didn’t care what or if I ate, and I never exercised. So, I took control of my weight issues by switching to a mostly vegetarian diet, going for vigorous walks and working out with light weights. But losing forty pounds meant I had to buy a whole new wardrobe. Not even my shoes fit any more! The first time I wandered into the local department store, I came to the full realization that I was now fifty-five years old and invisible. The clothes I saw other women wearing–and what was on the racks–made me feel like I was a time traveler from a different planet. I tried on clothes until I was nearly in tears. I went to another store and experienced much the same frustration. Nothing was right for the person I saw in the mirror. What I wanted to wear no longer looked right on the middle-aged woman staring back at me in desperation.
This Holiday season is different on account of so many things: the end of the Mayan calendar on December 21, 2012 (oh no, the end of the world!); the end of the Kali Yuga on that same date; astrological configurations that have not occurred since 26,000 years ago; not to mention the intense times on the planet on account of financial, emotional, and weather-related things that just don’t seem to end.
Hey wait, maybe December 21st will be the end of all the chaos and nonsense, wouldn’t that be nice?
This year I’m not even able to play my usual Christmas Songs while baking the things I send to my family who live far away; Nat King Cole and Bing just don’t sound very good.
I’m listening to classical music and my favorite Osho music more, trying to find comfort and joy inside. I’ve never taken that technological step with getting an iTunes account or a MP3 player or an iPod, so I am thankful that I have a CD player that is hooked up and still works!
I also like to bake to chill out, and I’ve been doing a lot of it lately. I have my grandma’s recipe for poppy seed and nut rolls, and it is the best one I’ve found, and I’ve searched the web extensively for a better one – believe me, there is no better recipe than hers! Because of my Czechoslovakian background, I find that I start to crave something with a lot of poppy seeds in it around now. They are so good and everyone loves them. If you like to bake, you should try to make them.
I don’t buy things that are mass-produced for any gift-giving occasion, so here are a few of my favorite things:
1.) My favorite hand-made soap is called Goat in the Patchouli Patch from ThingsFromHome. Really, in the ocean of hand-made soaps that are out there, Mickey’s goat milk soap’s stand out for their purity and price.
2. And forget all those fancy anti-aging products that promise everything and are expensive to boot, because really and truly, none of them will make me look like I did when I was in my 20’s again! Instead, finding a product that is really good for my skin, not crazy expensive, and something that smells really really good is what I am after.
What I found to be all that is Garima’s Lavender-Rose Moisturizer. Besides being a master herbalist she’s an aromatherapist too. My skin likes her products, and they make me happy because they smell divine! And, they are very high quality and affordable too. Check her stuff out.
3.) I found these seeds that are beautifully packaged and great gifts for anyone who gardens. Check them out at this site: Hudson Valley “Art Packs”.
4. I am also into supporting the local artists in my area. And while at one of our tailgate markets this past year, I saw Kristen Schooover’s whimsical and cute functional pottery. She has an Etsy page and is on FaceBook. You can also contact her in the old-fashoned way of telephoning or emailing her, if you write and ask me for it.
And lastly, I wear hats and scarves almost year-round; I feel especially protected when I’m wearing something on top of my head, and around my throat. I was really pleased to get a present of this hand-made silk scarf from a dear friend who got it from an online company in Canada called, WomenClothingToday. I love my silk scarf with a hand-painted design from Austrian artist, Klimt.
I’ll close with a wish that you are surrounded by love and beauty and feel a deep sense of contentment with what is, and what’s to come!
Vivian Gold is a friend of mine that I met through real estate years ago. She happens to be a gifted massage therapist who lives in Asheville (contact info is below in case you feel like you need to do something nice for yourself), and has agreed to answer some questions for Oops50. Enjoy! Sadhvi
1. What was the first album or 45 record you ever bought?
2. What is the one thing that you have to have on that makes you feel good when you leave the house?
When I go out, I have to have my lips looking good. In the moment, I really like ZUZU’s lipliner by Gabriele. I usually go for a neutral shade, and the one I’m using now is called “innocence”. Then I use a lipstick and my fave is also one from Gabriele’s. I hate to put chemicals and junk in or on my body, so I buy these at the heath food store, and they are great.
3. What’s your favorite comfort food?
My favorite comfort food in the summer is organic ice cream and in the winter it’s root veggies and lots of good carbs.
After that, I juice some veggies or make a smoothie with some spirulina powder, bee pollen, ground flax seeds…and add things that I have around that I like.
5. What is your favorite and least favorite thing about being over 50?
My favorite thing about being over 50 is my acceptance of “life on life’s term”. I feel more grounded. All my life’s experiences and lessons I was learning over the years, which might not have connected at the time, have integrated in the last couple of years into a sense of knowing and peace.
My least favorite thing about being over 50 are the little imperfections on my body like my freckles, which used to look great on my sun drenched face and body, but are now big from too much sun in my life. Oh, and another thing that I am not really thrilled about is keeping up with waxing my unwanted hair.
Vivian Gold LMT.
Global Vision Healing Arts
Massage and Wellness Therapy
Asheville, North Carolina